Dearly beloved,

I know you are trying your best to be good and be kind in everything that you do. It's a good thing, worthy of emulation.

I hope you know that this world is full of imperfect people, even the great people that have good intentions toward you still fail to communicate their intentions as they ought to. Some in the process will hurt you. They may not have meant to hurt you or meant evil, but sometimes, it just happens that way.
You must understand that every man is facing his own Giants and Struggles, and you are not within people's radars most times. Even, the tendency to vex their annoyance on you is there when something does not go their ways. When the ship is down and expectation hit the dead ends, it is human to find someone to blame or shift their anger to.

We are so coward from birth;

Our father was a coward man that could not stand the ground but blamed Eve for his own error. You know through the history of men, it has been few people that has been able to take responsibility for what they did, and those people become a kind of standard for us to follow today. So, remember that I as write this to you, you may also be doing the same to others unknowingly.

There's nothing wrong with you been different!

There's nothing wrong with you trying to follow your heart in all sincerity before God. Try to understand that you cannot please all men even the most anointed person is difficult to please as long his/she lives in this flesh.
Remember our Lord, he was a voice among thousands, if not millions, that went against the status quo. He turned to His own, and they hated Him without a cause. He was wrongly accused, wrongly judged and in the hearts of his own, all manner of presumptions and assumptions were made concerning him.

Remember his word "a man's foes shall be of his household", this word cut across culture, religion, and generation. So prepare your heart to be hurt and wounded in your friend's house. Your brothers and sisters may not (surely, many a time they will not) see what you are seeing and thereby stand against your good intentions but learn to ponder, then forgive and move on.

Upon all that our Master did to His own people, He was repaid with "Death on the Cross", a kind of death that's dished out to the criminals of those days. Don't be surprised if your goodness to this or that brother/sister is repaid with evil, remember you are not greater than your Master.

I must also bring it to your remembrance that; in the process of you trying to do your best with good intentions, some are going to get hurt. Not that you planned to hurt anyone but the planet earth, most time, messes with all of us.
Learn to apologize, but don't throw away your sincerity. Don't be a coward in taking responsibility for your action, be sincere having a good conscience toward God, your Maker.

It is okay for you to stand out in the crowd.
It's normal for some not understand you.
It's very abnormal to live your life in pretense in the name of trying to get favor from men.
Never do anything with or for eyes service, let God be your fear and honor all men.
You're called to only fear the King and honor all men, never lose sight of this like many are doing and are shipwrecking their lives by turning man to their God.
Reverence the Lord in your heart, let him be the judge of all you are doing.
Humans' judgment most time are perverted and corrupt, for we can only see within our scope unless God open our eyes to see beyond the wrong doing of others.

Please, I plead with you, learn to love and be real in your love towards other. Never fake anything, nothing is worth imitating than your Lord. Love is the strong tower, the hidden place that God has secured for His bride. So, you MUST love and live in love no matter what, where and whom you are. Love in the time when it’s pleasant and during unpleasant moment, do not forsake love.

We are all humans with FLAWS and our flaws flow through eternity.
God is perfect, let your trust be in Him. Trust the Lord for you daily needs for He’s the good shepherd.

Depending on man may lead you to your early grave with hurts and regret. If the Lord does not help you, no man, born of a woman can help you. Whatever help you’re receiving from men, know that it comes from God and men are just the avenues/vessels that God uses.
Learn also to appreciate the vessel that pour you water when you are hot and thirsty.
Yes, I know the vessel does not provide the water but it carries the water for you.
It is good to acknowledge the good that has been done to you and to appreciate those vessels that God uses. Don't be so consumed with negative things that has been done to you and lose sight of the goodness you have enjoyed.

Remember, we are imperfect people living in an imperfect world.

Let "Love" guides the way.

May the Lord give you understand of this.